I was in the car with my husband yesterday, Thomson Twins jangling in the background, when I started to think of what it means to be untethered. I am parentless, floating without the anchors that rooted my bones to the earth, my blood to the sky. My identity was already fractured, unstable at best, but now I become the definition of loss each time I open my eyes to inhale the sun, each time I close them again to swallow the moon. I have been emptied out so many times, turning to the memory of voices that fade with the passing of years. I became old when I should have been steeped in youth, threw my eyes into the grave, forgot how to look to the sky for solace, for discovery. I am recognized by the shape of my diseases, ailments that strangle my determination, but I don’t recognize my own face. I am the word on the page that erases itself but never stops searching for sound. I am a war, a need to be invisible and seen, to be silence and noise. Is this what it means to be untethered?
I am an internationally published writer and poet, originally from Los Angeles, now living in Ireland with my husband, 2 pugs and 2 cats. I am also the author of the full length poetry collection, "Things My Mother Left Behind", from Potter's Grove Press, and half of the creative force behind "Tiger Lily" an Ekphrastic Collaboration with Jane Cornwell, published by JC Studio Press.
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March 6, 2020 at 1:55 pm
used to be
the present tho all we have
is a gauge by which we measure
most any and everything.
March 6, 2020 at 2:12 pm
March 6, 2020 at 2:17 pm
It means sth else for each of us.
Ftr, silence and noise is my middle name.
March 6, 2020 at 2:28 pm
I think it is also always changing. Silence and noise….I know you get this so profoundly.
March 6, 2020 at 4:39 pm
this is wonderful!
March 6, 2020 at 5:26 pm
Thank you Wendi, so much. I really appreciate all of your support!
March 7, 2020 at 6:18 am
it is truly my pleasure…..
March 6, 2020 at 6:06 pm
A beautiful and profound expression, Susan. A relatable feeling, too. Love to you!
March 7, 2020 at 7:20 am
Thank you so much, Beautiful Lady! Love to you!
March 6, 2020 at 7:20 pm
March 7, 2020 at 7:21 am
Love you, Rita!
March 7, 2020 at 7:29 am
Love you right back 😊
March 6, 2020 at 8:43 pm
March 7, 2020 at 7:22 am
Thank you so much, Sweet Jean! xoxo
March 7, 2020 at 3:42 am
Wonderful post. Do read mine.
March 7, 2020 at 4:35 am
I agree with B, it means something different to everyone. To me, it means not being rooted in reality, to have one’s emotions completely unhinged from what is true and real
March 7, 2020 at 7:24 am
This is poetic, Steve. I agree it has different faces, and those faces can change. I find myself so often in contemplation these days.
March 7, 2020 at 6:36 am
I am not sure about untethered, but I am sure I have felt like this. So wonderful to see you again!
March 7, 2020 at 7:26 am
Thank you so much, B! I have missed you.
March 8, 2020 at 3:19 am
I missed you too, Susan. Many kisses!
March 7, 2020 at 8:09 am
This is gorgeous. I worry about feeling this way if I ever lose my parents and become an “orphan”. Family means so much to me that I would definitely feel untethered.
March 7, 2020 at 2:47 pm
Thank you, Lovely Lady! It is a very strange feeling that seems to creep up on me at random times. I think if I felt it all the time, I would come completely unglued.
March 8, 2020 at 12:21 pm
Powerfully spoken. I enjoyed this so much.
March 8, 2020 at 1:19 pm
Thank you so much, Kate!!!
March 9, 2020 at 6:59 am
strong, very strong, and maybe truly unknowable
March 9, 2020 at 9:30 am
You are so lovely, Mark
March 10, 2020 at 7:52 am
Wonderfully crafted, profound and introspective words, Susan. I love your prose-poetry for its deep philosophical, existentialist meaning, and it is all beautifully expressed. Bravo! 🤗💕
March 10, 2020 at 8:22 am
Thank you, my friend. I am so grateful for your support and generosity. xo
March 10, 2020 at 2:07 pm
You are welcome very kindly and the feeling is mutual. 💕
June 12, 2020 at 2:10 am
Really well written Susan. So relatable.
Do give my latest post a read
It is about the innocent love we all experienced once in our lives.
June 12, 2020 at 8:26 am
Thank you and I definitely will!