While reading over some of my more recent posts, I kind of wanted to tell myself to stop bitching. I suppose that I have been in a bit of a barbed mood lately, but there are wonderful things that happen between the barbs.
On the day of my RP appointment, my husband had jury duty and so couldn’t come with me. He was waiting to hear if he had been selected and I was waiting to hear if he would be able to pick me up after the myriad of eye tests. After the final eye exam with Dr. Sarraf and just before my last test ( an OCT), I got a text from my husband telling me he had been released from his civic duty and would be able to pick me up. I was so happy and so excited to tell him of the positive outcome of my appointment. I also got a text right about the same time from my dear friend Patricia, telling me that she was thinking of me and sending her love. I felt loved and supported and I knew I wasn’t alone in my bizarre vision journey.
When my husband came to pick me up, I got into our truck and told him the good news and he became very emotional. I have never felt so loved and cared for in my life. He seemed even happier than I was to hear that my vision is stable. I know that no matter what happens in this life, I have him with me to share all of it and I feel like the luckiest woman in the world. He makes me feel like I have value, sighted, blind or in between.
When I checked facebook later that evening, another of my very close friends had posted something asking how my appointment went and two of my other dearest friends wrote the most beautiful comments here on wordpress. I knew they were thinking about me and were genuinely happy to hear that all was as good as could be expected.
I feel loved and blessed and so fortunate.
Regarding another subject, The Sun: I know I write a lot about the sun and the heat and not entirely loving my current city, but I also have to say that all the time I spend indoors is in an apartment that I love. It is the home that I share with my husband and it is my very favorite place to be. I also have a lot of people in my life who are super generous and always offering to pick me up or drive me places, and my husband would be there in a heartbeat if I needed him. And, my husband also hates the sun and the heat so we are entwined in a joint mission to move to a cooler climate.
Although I sometimes feel so very alone in this slow trek to blindness, I know that I am not really alone. All I have to do is reach out and there will be arms to comfort me.