I never thought I would be so painfully unrecognizable. I never thought I would be so fat that I couldn’t tie my shoes. I never thought I would get old. I never thought my bones would ache. I never thought I would be unable to lift my arm for a year. I never thought I would be so obtrusive and yet so invisible. I never thought I would amount to much. I never thought I would lose my hair. I never thought I could disappear so easily. I never thought I would be blind.
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I am an internationally published writer and poet, originally from Los Angeles, now living in Ireland with my husband, 2 pugs and 2 cats. I am also the author of the full length poetry collection, "Things My Mother Left Behind", from Potter's Grove Press, and half of the creative force behind "Tiger Lily" an Ekphrastic Collaboration with Jane Cornwell, published by JC Studio Press.
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Stories From the Edge of Blindness 
August 12, 2020 at 11:27 am
I never thought I’d read someone like you… in thought you are my friend.
August 12, 2020 at 12:47 pm
Oh Eric, I am speechless right now. Thank you so much! The feeling is mutual!
August 12, 2020 at 11:48 pm
As Basilike said too…
August 13, 2020 at 2:06 pm
You guys are going to have me in puddles….
August 12, 2020 at 11:41 am
As Eric said, I never thought I’d read someone like you. And I never thought many other things about me, which I never said as fearlessly as you. You are admirable, Susan.
August 12, 2020 at 12:48 pm
Oh B, I am crying the good tears. You know how much I admire you, your talent and heart and spirit. Thank you so much!
August 12, 2020 at 2:49 pm
No need to thank me. You are a miracle.
August 13, 2020 at 2:02 pm
I so hope that we get to meet one day. Love to you, my friend!
August 13, 2020 at 2:59 pm
You’ll be closer now, and maybe when this disease is better controlled, we may. I hope so too.
Love to you too!
August 12, 2020 at 1:28 pm
I never thought I’d meet you. I know I will.
August 12, 2020 at 1:41 pm
I can’t wait!!!!
August 12, 2020 at 1:55 pm
Right?
August 12, 2020 at 2:14 pm
❤️❤️
August 12, 2020 at 4:03 pm
You accomplish more than many, Susan. Keep your head up and be proud of your accomplishments and who you are. Cheers!
August 13, 2020 at 2:03 pm
Thank you so much, Steven. I was feeling particularly demoralized the night I wrote that. It is crazy how even when amazing things are happening, the ghosts creep in.
August 15, 2020 at 5:51 am
Trust yourself, you’ll rise above those ghosts. 🙂
August 12, 2020 at 4:44 pm
I never thought I’d read such exquisite and visceral words as yours…
August 13, 2020 at 2:06 pm
Thank you so much! I was going on many nights of no sleep and feeling so demoralized when I wrote that. Sometimes I feel like I need to write and then share those stream of consciousness things. No polish, just the words and the feelings.
August 14, 2020 at 4:06 pm
You’re very brave!
August 13, 2020 at 11:13 am
Only good thoughts now Susan.
August 13, 2020 at 2:09 pm
Yes. Thank you so much, Mark!
August 16, 2020 at 7:42 am
I never thought I’d become friends with someone as wonderful and supportive and talented as you:-)
August 16, 2020 at 3:50 pm
Thank you so much, Lovely One! The feeling is totally mutual!!!
August 19, 2020 at 11:09 am
I never thought I’d be disabled, but it led me to a world of interesting And inspiring people, like yourself
August 19, 2020 at 1:02 pm
I feel the exact same Steve. There is so much and so many I wouldn’t know if it weren’t for RP.
November 8, 2020 at 10:32 am
It’s probably just as well we cannot imagine our future selves, but deal with the person we actually are. You do that courageously.
November 10, 2020 at 8:20 am
Thank you so much,Rachel!!! I hope you are safe and well!
November 10, 2020 at 9:53 am
Thank you, all is well here–for now 👍