My energy is pretty zapped right now, my thoughts consumed with what is happening to my father. I feel sad and emotional. I feel so grateful for all of the kindness I receive here, and for the amazing writing that I get to lose myself in. But, right now, I am not reading much and certainly not writing much. I feel like a stone, slowly sinking as everything goes dark. I will get through this. I will meet the challenges that face me.
In the meantime, I have the last two poems from The Furious Gazelle recorded and will share those. In advance, I am sorry to post and run.
Flush
Lurking behind the thin
stained metal of a bathroom stall,
brazen and breathing gravel,
she waits for an audience.
I open the door to a greeting
that crackles with delight,
but the smell of her misery
crowds the room.
She steps elegantly from
behind the tin curtain and
bows to her reflection in the mirror.
Her hair is tangled and covered with despair.
She is searching for a song
that died with the starlets of Ragtime.
Lips that drip fire grasp at words
falling through blisters and cracks.
Her nose seeps with determination.
She smudges blood across her teeth
with a tremoring hand, burps,
and flushes herself down the toilet.
May 24, 2019 at 7:24 am
Breathe.
May 24, 2019 at 8:22 am
Very sorry about your papa. Sending you love.
May 24, 2019 at 8:24 am
Thank you so much, Kyla. It’s why I really needed a break from Twitter. My mind just ins’t in much now, if that makes sense.
May 24, 2019 at 9:31 am
I’m thinking about you, Susan.
May 25, 2019 at 6:05 am
Thank you, River.
May 24, 2019 at 9:56 am
power
hour
she is
on her rag
glad to bag
suck
the trick
turned
on a dime
thin
silver
and bright
as the raze of the son!
May 25, 2019 at 6:06 am
Definitely an interpretation of her that only you could give, John!
May 25, 2019 at 8:07 am
yes i know that is where i learned about bodily pleasures.
May 28, 2019 at 3:07 am
Great after poem!
May 28, 2019 at 12:41 pm
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May 24, 2019 at 11:39 am
What a powerful piece, Susan!
May 25, 2019 at 6:06 am
Thank you, my friend!
May 25, 2019 at 6:17 am
You’re welcome!
May 24, 2019 at 1:22 pm
“Died with the starlets of Ragtime” —- so many phrases catch and twist my guts. Another Lovely poem. Incredible of you to share that with us at a time like this. Be good to yourself. ❤️
May 25, 2019 at 6:07 am
Thank you, BB! Love you. More craziness yesterday. There isn’t a day without it now, it seems.
May 25, 2019 at 7:02 am
Oh Susan. Thinking of you.
May 25, 2019 at 1:03 am
It’s morning here and as I’m listening to your beautiful voice. As always, I love your poem. My favorite part is the reference to Ragtime starlets. The end came as a surprise, yet the feeling is very relatable. I’m sure I’ve felt sometimes as if I could flush myself down the toilet.
Take care of yourself, dear! Lot’s of love.
May 25, 2019 at 6:08 am
Thank you so much, B! Love to you, my friend!
May 25, 2019 at 10:10 am
Many kisses!
May 25, 2019 at 12:31 pm
This was very cool–that ending! Sending you hugs also–I know how hard it is.
May 26, 2019 at 6:44 am
Thank you, Suzanne! xoxoxo
May 28, 2019 at 3:10 am
Love this poem, Susan, beautifully crafted as always. The darkest side of the human soul so well expressed with gorgeous images. I know these are hard moments for you but, please, stay strong dear. You are much stronger than you think. Your poems are breathtaking and also healing to you and to us all. Thank you for being in the wondrous realms of wordpress. And thank you for the precious time we share.
May 28, 2019 at 6:38 am
Oh Marta, thank you so much. You are always so incredibly kind and generous and I am very grateful for you. Sending so much love your way!
May 28, 2019 at 8:30 am
Always my pleasure, dear Susan. Love Peace and Justice 💞💪🌈
May 29, 2019 at 5:00 am
Oh what a haunting poem!
Sending hugs your way….
May 29, 2019 at 6:28 am
Thank you, Carrie Ann!!!