The lights play tricks on me. They disappear when my eyes are open and appear in kaleidoscope fashion when I shut them against my blindness. It always feels so strange to see more with my eyes closed that with them open in the dark.
There are a couple of light shows that are frequently repeated. One is just a white light that looks like a tad pole and swims around and around in the outer fields of my vision. The other is a cluster of bright bluish purple triangles that move around in random formation. Am I witnessing the slow death of my retinas in light form? Are the lights and shapes from an old visual memory? Are my retinas trying to work with the limited cells that are left to them? I have no idea. I just know that the lights that turn on when I close my eyes are out of my control; just another slap in the face from RP.