I realize that I am a rubbish blogger, tweeter, instagrammer and facebooker. I go along feeling as if I have just written a blog post and when I visit my site, I find it has been months since I have posted a single word. The truth is, some days I have nothing to say or I am afraid to face the things I know I want and need to say, and some days I write as if I am burning and crazy and elated and drowning. None of which leads me to blog on a regular basis.
Although I have not written a blog post in a long time, I have been writing and rising out of the ashes of a disease that steals not only my vision , but my sense of self and purpose. I always knew that I wanted to write, that the spaces inside the words are where I feel my truth, but I got lost in the murky waters of RP. I wrapped myself up in the task of becoming a blind person and forgot that I am a person beyond my blindness.
Outside of this blog, I write poetry. Poetry is really my first writing love; it is where my creative pulse was born. A few months ago, after a 20 year hiatus, I decided I wanted to start submitting my poetry for publication again. I had some things published when I was in my 20’s, but life got complicated, I put my writing voice on a high shelf and I stopped sending my work out. Starting this blog got me excited about writing again and although it took years, I finally immersed myself in my poetry and gathered up the courage to put my voice back into the literary world. I was elated when the first response I got was a positive one.
Heather Lenz, the poetry editor at Stepping Stones Magazine, accepted three of my poems for publication. I am over the moon. I feel reunited with my self and my passion. I feel as if I have stepped out of the darkness and learned how to weave RP into the fabric of my life rather that allowing it to smother me.
I can’t say that I will become a prolific blogger; I am still trying to get a handle on that discipline thing, but I do think I will be blogging a lot more.
The two poems that have appeared in Stepping Stones Magazine can be read through the links below.